I’m getting old now, but I’m still as interested as ever in understanding myself and the world around me. I started out in theoretical physics, with my Ph.D. studies focused on Einstein’s general relativity. A proper job was never going to work for me so I started my own business analyzing information technology and selling the reports to large corporations. It was very successful and allowed me to retire in my early fifties.

I’d come across Gurdjieff in my early twenties and was fortunate enough to meet Rina Hands, a lady who had worked with Gurdjieff. I learned a great deal with Rina, and after she died I found other teachers in both the Gurdjieff and zen traditions. These days I row my own boat and have become particularly interested in western philosophy, which holds much more than many people suspect.

The central themes of my writing and podcasts are our reluctance to see reality, our eagerness to load ourselves up with ideology, morality, beliefs and whatever else serves to fill the gap we find when we look within. It’s all very damaging, and so the deconstruction of these “assets” is the first port of call. Only when we shed the garbage piled upon us by parents, teachers, peers, and society at large can we become real.

I’m aware that this will not be of interest to most people, busily filling their inner emptiness with anything they can lay their hands on. The thought of stripping it way would not appeal. Anyway, I hope there is something here that is of interest.

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